ENOUGH

My stupid stereotypical teenage life continues as I struggle with teenage stereotypes (I'm not original).  I am constantly frustrated with my weight, how to talk to boys, if boys might be attracted to me if ever, that my best friend lives across the fucking country, how I never seem to have free time, despite the fact that I don't do ANYTHING, that I'm not good enough, that I'll never actually start the novel I actually like the idea for, or if I do I'll never finish it, that I'm not cultured, that I'm not smart, that I am a selfish person for only caring about MY problems and MY needs instead of the millions of people out there who I can't even begin to comprehend their issues, that I am less worthy than my more-liked sister, that my leg is falling asleep now because I am sitting on the floor of my cramped closet, that I'll never be asked to a dance, even though I don't like them, that I won't get into a good college, that I won't know what to study when I go to college, that I won't be able to live in Europe with my best friend, that I'll never be liked, that   I'll never live up to any of the expectations that were given to me, that I'll become an unhappy, average person who leaves the world, entirely forgotten, like I wasn't even here, that I don't dress well enough, that I'm too fat, that I only wear the same pair of boots every single day, that I don't talk enough, that I talk too much, that I don't do enough, that I read too much, that I go on the computer too much, that I'm not smart, that I'll never be kissed, that----ENOUGH.
I am done. I am sick and tired of all the shit that I have to hear and deal with every fucking day, all of that shit that I think to myself every single minute of every single day.  I just want to drop everything, grab my clothes, computer, books, and dog and fly to London and live there forever.  Away from this godforsaken high school, this city, the vapid people (including me) who live in it, their stupid problems and mine are too.