Healthy vs. Happy

I'm going to be honest. You have no idea what I look like. There is a small picture of me in the corner, but my back is turned and I'm on the ground, several feet away.  So you don't know that I'm kind of fat. It's not like "OHMYGOD YOU ARE MORBIDLY OBESE, HOW DO YOU WALK?" or anything like that, but it's to the point where I am far too fat to be considered thin and far too thin to be considered fat...or obese. I am not really that uncomfortable with it.  I always dream about how it would feel to walk down a beach or pool in a bikini and not feel self conscious, but I don't let it affect me or my personality.  But I've always wondered...where is the line drawn? I'm always told to be comfortable in my own skin, to not change a thing about myself, to be happy.  And on the other hand, I am told that it would be better if I lost weight, better if I dieted, I'd be healthier.  I just think, when is it important to lose weight? When you start losing confidence in yourself? When you feel embarrassed about your body? When it starts affecting your health in a major way? My mother is the biggest supporter f the "Why don't you lose some weight" side, but if my friends like me for me and I feel comfortable with it, why the fuck should I have to change? I mean, I'm not hurting you with it. I'm not bouncing around shirtless waving my fat folds in front of your face as I shove pie down my throat.  I'm just...me. This is something that I've been having trouble with for a long time and I just wanted to share.  That is the not rhetorical question of the blog: when should one lose weight? And if they are completely happy and healthy, should they ever? I'm on the fence.  I don't think I'll ever have the motivation to lose more than a few pounds at a time before I gain it all back, but I'm not just frolicking around like an elephant. Now I'm repeating myself. Time to go now. Good bye.