I am not in the mood to look at other people's achievements at the moment. For a while, my life has been a series of disappointments. Actually, they're not disappointments. They're more along on the lines of reminders that I am not good at anything. It's just one of those things that I know. I've tried and tried and every single time I try, my hope goes up and I think, "Maybe this time..." but no. They're all just big roller coasters of events that continually end in my failure and red eyes. I try SO HARD not to care, but in the end, it doesn't matter. Every single goddamn time. So many trials and so many failures. I'm just not good enough. For anything. I just like to hope that I am, so I have somewhere to go, somewhere to actually feel praise for my talents. Currently, I don't have any. It's like my world continues to crumble before my eyes and I have yet to see the rocks to come and crush me. Nothing I do matters. Nothing anyone ever does will matter, because in the end, that's just it. There will come a time, long from now, where no one will ever remember anyone's existence. My life and your life won't be a part of history, because there won't be any history, and that's not technically a bad thing. It's just a fact. But sometimes I just need to remember, This too shall pass.
EDIT: It passed.
